IS it worth it?

I just drank an energy drink.
I'm shaky.
I can't sleep.
AND its 12:49 AM.
Hmmm.

"Is it worth keeping all of the commandments? Is it worth being morally clean? Is it worth living the Word of Wisdom? Is it worth being honest, honest in your work, in your classes at school, and in all your dealings? Is it worth paying your tithes and offerings? Is it worth serving faithfully wherever you are called?" -M. Russell Ballard

I haven't always been bothered by the phrase "It'll all be worth it in the end." In fact, I think growing up, I never second guessed it.
As of late though, it has been one of those [THROUGH ONE EAR OUT THE OTHER].. then realize it was actually said and never stop thinking about it... phrases.

You get braces= it'll all be worth it in the end
You go to 6 years of college= it'll all be worth it in the end
You spend a large amount of $ on something= it'll all be worth it in the end.
You are pregnant for 9 months= it'll all be worth it in the end.






Now please, DON'T get me wrong... Straight teeth, Education, Risks, and children are all WORTH IT IN THE END... to some people. But..

Why does that have to be the answer when we don't have an answer?
Better yet, why doesn't that answer satisfy me anymore?

You suffer. Put up with. Go through. Struggle with. Something that is REALLY hard.
IS it worth it in the end?
What is if its not?



Is it because I'm older?
Is it because I'm dumb?
Is it because I'm finally growing up?

Or is it because...



I'm stubborn.

That is my conclusion.
I get it from my mama, and in most cases it is a good thing.

I often find myself (call it what you want) questiong, doubting, wondering... everything!

I just wish it was easier.
I wish I understood.
I wish I could stop worrying.
I wish I could have the faith.

All of these things I wish. And yet, when someone is feeling down and they talk to me about it, I find myself saying It'll all be worth it in the end.

Because it will? Right?

"Oh, my brothers and sisters, if you could only contemplate and really understand while at your young age what that means! And then, if you could just place that priority properly in your life and live up to it, you would never have any difficulty making the right decisions. You would always have tucked in the back of your mind this concept: “It is worth it. I am not going to compromise; I am not going to shortcut; I am going to commit myself all the way, because it is worth it.” -M. Russell Ballard